July 2010
1 post
The Path I Have Choosen...
There are times when I think back to my childhood days and teenage years and see the person I dreamed I would one day be. Am I that person now? Not completely. Am I still happy? Completely. In my life I have made some horrible decisions. I took paths that I probably should have avoided. But each stumble I have made has led me to where I am today. I have no regrets except for one. I mapped...
Jul 13th
On Love And Coming Home...
A few years ago I bought a book, “Chicken Soup for the Couple’s Soul”.  Everytime I tried to read the book I found myself in tears.  I know what you’re thinking, the book is supposed to fill you will romantic tears of understanding.  Those are not the tears I am speaking of.  I was shedding tears of mourning.  I was mourning a love I had never had.  I thought the people...
Jul 28th
Outside Looking In...
I feel at peace today.  It is a feeling unlike any I have known for a long long time.  I have finally accepted the inner me, the troubled me and the doomed to take medication for life me.  For years I have hated those parts of myself. Like they weren’t really me but an alien trying to take over my life and myself.  But now that I am on a higher dosage of medicine and my chemicals seem to be...
Jul 21st
March 2009
1 post
My Stupid Hobby...
I have this little game/hobby I play called “If these two had a baby this is what it would look like”.  Yes, I know the name is a little long I am working on it. I do this all the time, it is almost a habit.  But in my defense I am really good at it. Here is an example (Expect more of them later): If Colonel Sanders… And Emo Phillips had a baby… This is what it...
Mar 2nd
February 2009
5 posts
2 tags
Sex, Men and Shaving...
Catchy little title no? This message is mostly for my male readers. Yeah right, like I have those. lol Men, when women tell you they shaved their legs there is a reason.  We want sex.  We have no other reason to tell you this.  Hell in fact if this planet was only inhabited by women it would be a planet of fat hairy women.  We try to look more appealing for you.  Because frankly I am perfectly...
Feb 27th
Somethings Never Change...
I went into my old/new job today to get my haircut shortened.  As soon as I walked in I recognized two of my old clients who immediately said they would be back Wednesday when they found out I was coming back. Two of the girls asked me to go smoke with them. One girl wants me to go to a “purse party” whatever the fuck that is. And one of the girls insisted I eat a brownie. I...
Feb 25th
3 tags
My New Old Job...
I just accepted my old position at a local hair salon.  I was not sure at first if I wanted to go back to doing hair because in truth I really do not like people.  You would think someone in the service industry would love people.  Untrue. VERY UNTRUE. I love the creativeness of being a hairstylist.  I love experimenting.  I love that I can do whatever I want to my own hair and it is accepted. I...
Feb 24th
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Envy...
I have ran into two different cases of envy in the past two days. My best friend from childhood told me that when we were very young (16-18) that she envied my freedom.  I was out on my own and starting my life.  She then said she however, did not envy what I had to go through to get to that freedom. Today I ran across my “Sisters” facebook page.  I quote sister because until I was...
Feb 24th
Don't Click Follow Just Yet...
Why? Because I seriously think you will be wasting you time. I am not a great writer.  In fact I don’t even think I am a good writer.  What I write may be offensive to many, childish to some and just plain stupid to the rest.  But I am not writing for you.  I write for me and me alone.  This is my therapy.  This is where I can collect my thoughts, memories and just a place to reflect. Are...
Feb 24th